How I Found the Courage to Surrender to My Heart

This story is about finding your voice, hearing your heart and soul after years of quelling its yearning to be heard.

It isn’t just my story, it’s everyone’s story who dares to overcome what you thought life was supposed to be and instead let life be as it was always intended. It was in this year that I began a journey to rediscover and quite frankly to finally discover realize my life purpose.  The elusive unknown had floated around in my head off and on for so many years and little had I known, all I had to do was to listen, to be open, to be ready, to just be.Somewhere in that time, I read Michael Singers "The Surrender Experiment", his remarkable story of just being, of just listening to what the universe might deliver, might have in mind.  I know, for some of you this sounds like pure nonsense. There was a time that I would have visibly rolled my eyes, snickered just a little (a lot) and completely dismissed whomever made such a suggestion.  So no, I’m not here to convince you otherwise, there would be no use. My journey has been my own and I simply wish to share it in the event you do wish to listen, in the event you do feel this inner desire that you can’t quite capture and maybe are hardly aware. There are so many people close to me, that I would give my life so to speak.  This is my reason for sharing my story, for wanting to bare my heart, my soul to all whom will listen.  In the event it means just one woman, one person discovers their way even a little sooner than they might have.  If by some miracle, some universal chance, that person is one that I cherish and love so dearly then all of my sorrows, all of my pain will have not only given me life but given to others as well.  Know this, whether you are one that I knowingly cherish and love or our paths have never yet crossed, then you too are my purpose, my reason for sharing this great love that I am destined to impart on the world. 

For that is the way of the universe, that is the way life was intended for us to live our greatest purpose, to cherish and enrich the lives of all those we touch.

Wow, as I write these words, I wonder how have I come to this?  How have I reached such clear knowing, such sured understanding of what life is intended to offer versus what we have allowed it to become?  Well, I’m not presenting myself as the expert or the all knowing. What I offer is simply this one version, this amazing experience of life as I have known it and I believe that what I have lived, what I have endured was intended to somehow help you, help others see beyond the life you are in at this very moment.  It’s not that your life isn’t grand and wonderful. I had all of that as well. It’s a matter of what you are feeling despite all that grandeur, all the love, maybe even abundant wealth being bestowed upon you. 

What matters is that voice, however faint it might be, the fact that it is there, that you can hear it even after all your efforts to quiet it, to eliminate it from your head. 

Here’s the thing.... It’s not in your head.... IT's IN YOUR SOUL!  It’s in your BEING and the longer you quell it, the longer you disregard it, the longer you wait for your real life to begin.  I wish I could tell you that I figured this out on my own, that I found my way as a strong independent woman. Hell! I don’t even wish that anymore. Yes, I am a strong independent woman by which that very definition has changed exponentially in such a short time.No longer must I prove my worth, must I prove to the world how strong I am, how fiercely independent I am.  Let’s start with that, let’s get it out on the table how ridiculous that notion is, all of its own. What does strong and independent mean anyways?  What does it conjure up in your mind? Perhaps a woman who holds the door for you instead, a woman who earns a hefty income, a woman who stands in the boardroom as the loan female, determined to be more than just a token? Well here’s the kicker, I was all of those at one time, for a rather long time.  The PROBLEM.... My worth as I saw it was determined by my paycheque, by my stature in the company, the elusive title whatever that might be.I spent my life living the lie that I needed no one, that as long as I could fend for myself, my life would be complete. And so it is no wonder that two marriages later I was sitting in a therapist office sobbing like a two year old, wailing like a new born literally forming the fetal position, knees at my chin, arms wrapped around, tears soaking through my jeans. Yep, that’s the start of my story and I gotta tell you, the rest is so much more interesting, so much more fun and enjoyable.  Through all of the sadness, all of the heartache, all of the grief, there is this wondrous tale of discovery, of living life as it was intended and dare I say, finding the love of your life, first in yourself and then in this amazing twist of universal fate, discovering the other love of your life, your soul mate, the one that you were searching for yet didn’t know it. 

The one that you were craving, desiring, wishing into existence without truly believing to be possible until you just listened, you simply allowed your heart to guide you, to follow the path the universe lead you to see right in front of you. 

This is the part of my journey that I can’t wait to share with you, to tell you all the wondrous happenings that occurred. In doing so, it is my deepest desire that your path may veer to the right or left just a little sooner, just a little quicker and certainly just a little easier than mine.  I invite you to stay with me on this journey and perhaps through my lens, I can help you see your world as something a little brighter, a little grandeur than what you might have imagined it to be.What is your "life changing" destiny or desire?  I'd love to hear more from you about your own journey.Share here if you likeHi I’m Donna. I’m deeply passionate about helping people achieve more than they thought possible by creating habits and practices aligned with who you are and how you want to show up. If you’re ready to discover how to get where you want and deserve to be faster, I invite you to a 30-minute no-obligation chat. Book it now.

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